This announcement is coming about two months too late, but better late than never, right?
Four months ago I wrote that come August I was leaving Taiwan to backpack southeast Asia with a friend. However, as August drew closer and closer, I realized with the utmost certainty that I wasn’t ready to leave Taipei. It was going to break my heart. I felt as though there were still some things I needed to take care of here. First and foremost: studying Mandarin.
Even though I hated to do it, I pulled out of my backpacking trip. It was tough to let go of that dream of traveling Asia, living the life of a beach bum and exploring new and vibrant cities. But as soon as I did so, I felt peaceful, like a weight had lifted. I felt good deciding to stay somewhere, for perhaps the first time in my life.
But Taipei? Oh, Taipei. There is something about this city, this country, that has captured my heart and my attention. I have never experienced this level of peace anywhere. Maybe it’s the people, the endless smiles, the constant calls of “yuanying guanling” anytime I enter an establishment. Or the amount of drink choices at 7-11. Or the never-ending supply of fresh, delicious, exotic fruits and vegetables. Because, oh my god, the FRUIT. Maybe it’s the fact I’ve found my places: the place I run at night, my night market, my local friends, my fruit stand, my always-changing neighborhood. It’s the temples, the worship, the colors interwoven with the gray skies. It’s how Taipei 101 is lit up at night, and maybe even the way I almost always get hit by those blue trucks. It’s the markets and the energy and the scooters and the way families seem to love being together.
I’ve settled in here. I’ve made my own little family, a community, at the hostel. I’m happy. It tore at my heart to think of leaving this city after only a year. Why would I leave a place like this?
So since my decision to stay, I enrolled at the Chinese Culture University, the school of continuing education. Two weeks ago I started studying Mandarin.
I know. About time, right?
Studying so far is incredible. I loved this place before, but the language barrier made things difficult. But now, a whole new world is opening up for me. Now instead of looking at the characters and seeing only a meaningless scribble, something is starting to take shape. I can look at some characters and a word pops into my head. Not a lot, but some. And that delight in understanding is the best motivation to continue studying. Part of me regrets not studying mandarin sooner, but I’m so happy to be doing it now that I can’t get too upset.
So there it is. For the foreseeable future, I’ll be in Taipei. At the moment, I’m not teaching, but I’ll figure out a new job eventually. This time, I’m not going to end the post with a prediction on where I’ll be three months from now. That never seems to turn out how I think it will.